Monday, June 11, 2007
heys i'm back blogging...
yeah.. my bedroom set came alr, and its kinda smelly cos its new.. so i sprayed perfume all over! haha. i feel dumb. oh well.. had my first tuition session today.. the teacher is so funny! and quite handsome too.. LOL. but no, i do not hav a crush. haha.
well, i'm so tired today.. and very hungry.. i think i only ate a cheese sandwich (one slice of bread, one slice of cheese folded into 2) the whole day.. a few choc chips too.. but that's it. i'm kinda weak rite now.. scared to leave the house.. ltr i faint on the way.. yeah.. even though my last experience of fainting was in sec 2, the memories still haunt me.. it was so scary. i mean i fainted in public cos i didnt eat the whole day.. and a stranger kindly helped me up the bus.. when i woke up i was already reaching my house bus stop. lucky for me, the stranger did not have any evil intentions.. or i could have easily ended up in his or her house. haix.
i have a stupid headache now, probably because of my lack of sleep these few days.. somehow i jus cant get to slp till its like 2 or 3 in the morning.. dunno wads happening to me oso.. haix i really wanna talk to someone. but it seems that all those who i really can open up to are too busy now.. that sucks.. i had to resort to jus writing everything down on paper.. haix.
i dunno wads going on wif me. but oh well.. i know this is only for a short period of time. lutoil. thats jus an acronym. dun try figuring it out, cos u wont. anyway, i jus wanna go play swings and go east coast park.. oh well if no one will go wif me.. den i'll go alone. gotta get used to it anyway.. and i think i'll go do some exercise.. haven done so in quite some time, and that really helps me take my mind off things. haix.
i feel like dancing again.. the last time i danced was probably sec 2? cos i changed church. so i was no longer in the dance ministry.. looking back, i really miss those days.. it was fun.. i started dance when i was 5, and learned for many years.. when our group of dancers grew older, we became instructors to the younger ones.. it was fun teaching them how to dance.. but i think now i cant dance well.. used to dance at least once a week.. now, i havent done so for 2 years?
oh well.. after o levels i wanna go join dance again. i need that. i love that. its been my passion for so long.. i aint gonna let it go.. thinking back, dance opened so many doors for me.. i went to malaysia twice to perform.. and of course we danced in church.. but it was all worth it. i enjoyed it.
i guess i should stop rattling about the past and start concentrating on the future. i should really sleep, but i'm too hungry.. gastric the whole day.. haix. yesterday all i ate was half a prata and 1/4 bowl of noodles. and today, only a cheese sandwich. i weighed myself jus now.. i lost 2kg.. haix. its not tt i dun wanna eat.. its jus that i dun hav the time or appetite. and there's no food at home anyway.
well, i think i'll stop here.. my vision is blurring.. and i dun wanna faint in front of the computer. yups! bye.
1:08 AM;
christine was here