Thursday, July 31, 2008
The Point.
i believe every commitment will reach 'the point'. this is basically the point in which you feel that you're doing everything for nothing. that your time invested in that commitment is wasted. its the point that if you go pass, you will probably continue in the commitment for a long time. but, if you choose to give up, everything will just go down the drain.
i dread the point. it makes me think alot, question the value of the commitment. i have gone through many 'points' in various commitments. some of which i passed, others where i failed. sometimes, i look back, and its 'the point' that could change who i am, my interests, my lifestyle, me.
sad to say, ________ has reached the point. i'm seriously considering if i should continue. there's no doubt about my interest. it's definitely there. but.. it's just that i don't know if i can commit. don't know if it's taking up too much time. don't know if i'll benefit from it. it's just filled with don't knows and what ifs. i hate the feeling of uncertainty, and i believe everyone does.
what should i do?
i felt at ease when i skipped __________ today. like i was really free to do what i want to. i went for ________ instead. and i had so much more fun. i did so much more with the same amount of time. my brain wasn't overworked, and i actually could rest after a hard day in school. as you can imagine, all these events lead me to question, is __________ really something i want to do?
i really don't know anymore.
i used to be so sure that i'd love ___________ and don't get me wrong, i do enjoy it. it's just getting more tiring, more draining, more unenjoyable, more mundane, more routine.
oh well. once again, only time will tell.....
will i pass the point?
bye!
2:24 AM;
christine was here
Monday, July 28, 2008
Commitments.
is _______taking up too much of my time?
if i don't go for ________, i can go for _________ and __________. so what should i do now? everytime i go for __________, i know i could be somewhere else, having more fun or learning more valuable lessons.
so now, __________ is having selections, to see who can make it, who can't. on one hand i'm hoping i will, on the other hand i'm hoping i won't. if i make it, that means more of ________ but that also means my time invested in __________ has not gone to waste. yet, if i don't make it, that means i can concentrate more on ________ and _________ and possibly take a break from ___________ cos then i won't be needed.
so it's either ___________ or _________ and __________.
& you wonder why i have to eat so much icecream.
bye!
10:50 PM;
christine was here
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Random.
okay, first thigs first. debate try outs are no longer on saturday!! *thank you Jesus! (:* now i can go to church & this week's church wide prayer meeting too! & who could forget, FOP!! (: yayness.
"and we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
God is an awesome God!
okay, now on to other things, a unique conversation today..
me: is dark knight a horror movie?
des: *bursts out laughing* it's batman la!
me: huh really?! i didn't know.
des: omg! hahahaha! *continues laughing*
me: i don't watch tv ok!
des: *still lauging*
conclusion: i need to keep in touch more with what's happening!
hmmmm..
on another random note, i ate 2 icecreams today! say YAY for ice-cream people. it's like the best invention in the world la. i mean its cold, it's tasty, it looks yummy, tastes good, its affordable and it ROCKS! what's not to like?!
& i had taukua at school today! i totally agree that the evening taukua tastes better than the morning taukua. (:
i know this is a random post. hahahaha!
BLEAH. i shall go entertain myself with my randomness.
yes, i know i rock cos i can entertain myself.
i don't need a box with lights to keep myself lauging. (:
bye (:
12:01 AM;
christine was here
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Shopping.
i feel more than just fun, shopping brings about so many different benefits. i guess, some guys are probably scratching your heads now.. so well, here they are..
shopping helps you express your emotions freely.
you see, if you're happy/sad/angry but don't want to express your emotions in a negative way, shopping is a great way to do so! & people won't think you're retarded too, cos everyone does it. when you're happy, express yourself by buying something and then jumping for joy and smiling from ear to ear. will people think you're weird? probably not. and when you're sad and just feel like crying, you can always not bring any money while you shop, see something you like and cos you can't get it, cry. you freely express your sadness without people knowing! they'll probably just think you're sad cos you cant get what you want, but they wont know the pain you're hiding. and when you're angry, go to the store, which doesn't have your sizes, and start screaming cos you think the designs are awesome but they don't have your size! people once again will think you're just screaming at the spur of the moment.
i believe, you get the point. so NEXT.
shopping saves water.
when you're shopping, you buy clothes, well most of us do. so when you buy more clothes, that means you won't have to rotate your clothes so often. which therefore means that you have to wash clothes less often. we all know washing clothes takes up alot of water. so shopping is the answer! not only that, when you're shopping, it's probably a whole day thing, so you won't use water at your house at all. cos there are toilets in shopping centers, well duh. LOL.
get it? NEXT!
shopping is great exercise.
you see shopping requires you to walk around for the whole day. it's an active sport. i bet if you measure the distance you walk while shopping and stretch it out, you probably can walk from bedok, through tampines all the way to pasir ris. not only that, you constantly have to browse through clothes, which of course means tired hands. the best part, carrying your purchases all around for the whole day. it's like lifting weights everywhere! so tell me now, who wouldn't want to shop?!
hopefully, you see the point.... NEXT!
shopping motivates you to work hard.
using maslow's theory of needs, people are motivated by needs. when you shop and spend, you will have a need of money. since money is necessary for everyday essentials, you need money. the only way to get money, is to work hard and get a good salary. so you see, shopping actually motivates you!
understand??
okay, that's all i've got for now. so guys, the next time girls ask you out for a shopping trip, remember all the benefits! (:
girls, we rock don't we? (:
bye!
8:24 PM;
christine was here
why Saturday?!
okay, this is me ranting. so feel free to stop reading LOL.
i believe the title is pretty self-explainatory. just let me elaborate on the issue. you see, for as long as i can remember, saturday is church day. and it's off limits for any other activities. with that said, i'm unhappy cos now there's something else on for 2 saturdays.
debate tryouts for interpolys.
you're probably wondering, what's the problem, since church is only on in the evening. so let me explain.. debate is from 9am to 6pm. which is like the WHOLE day. church starts at 5.30pm. i don't like being late for church at all (i believe no one does). so well, that's for the 26th. and! strawberry and i have already agreed to wear dress to church together. hmmm but i WONT wear a dress to debate. it's a huge NO NO.
now for the 2nd of aug. this is even worse cos, it's Festival of Praise! FOP has always been something that i really look forward to and enjoy it too, no doubt. so even though it starts at 7.30pm, we all know that you probably won't be able to get in if you go late.
now how?
i wanna go for debate, cos it's like what i've been training for for like 3 months? and to throw that all away would be a waste.
yet, i don't wanna compromise on going to church.
why saturday people, WHY?!
*sighs*
bye..
1:09 AM;
christine was here
Saturday, July 19, 2008
The case of X v Y.
okay, don't let the seemingly serious title scare you, cos this is a lighthearted post!
i shall name two people X and Y just for the fun of it.
X: ah! i so need to go shopping lahx.. so long nv go sia.
Y: wow, now i know why people say singaporeans have bad english.
X: i'm so bored zzz i dunno wad to write.. hmmm..
Y: if you really don't know, then don't write!
X: sian la.. so boring sia. everyday go sch study... zzz
Y: if only you bothered about your future..
X: i dunno wad to do, so i'm here... zzz
Y: the fact that you're here shows that you know what to do!
X: wa lao eh u noe ar.. so sian lahhh!! irritating.. zzz
Y: okay, english classes, please!
X: i feel fat! i gained weight! ahhh! noooo!
Y: stop it! you're not fat!
X: i'm not complaining, i'm just really tired.
Y: wow, wasn't that a complaint in itself!
X: how how!! ahhh i very confused lahhhhh!!
Y: maybe if you just stopped thinking your problem was so big!
X: i'm bored bored bored!! stuck at home!!
Y: & you've just made everyone else bored too.
alright, i think you get the drift. you must be wondering, who are these two people rite rite? (see i can so read your mind. quick, say christine rocks!)
anyway, since christine rocks so much, she shall tell you who X and Y are! (ppl go yay!) LOL.
* drumroll, please *
X is christine in sec school.
Y is christine now, who's disgusted by her past self.
& i'm not joking, i seriously got annoyed at myself while reading my past posts. HAHA!
okay, that's all!
BYE (:
1:54 AM;
christine was here
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Strength.
i suppose when the word strength is mentioned, the image of a guy working out in the gym is almost immediately formed in our minds. many people seem to relate strength to how tight their six packs are, or how defined their biceps are. (sound familiar?)
for me, strength is definitely something that can and will be developed through the activities and events in our lives. yes, physical strength is one component but i think REAL strength comes from within.
strength to me is the ability to take setbacks and get back up, the ability to push yourselves beyond your limits and achieve your goal. i think, by now, you'll probably be thinking i'm talking rubbish, and if you don't well, GOOD JOB! (in hancock style! LOL!)
i shall stop boring you with what i think and actually prove it! hahaha. okay, so i was in canoeing in secondary school. if you know me or have seen me before, you'll know that i don't exactly have the built for a canoeist. so enough of an intro, here's the story!
when i started in sec 1, i was probably among the smallest few in the team. determined to win in the competition, i trained REALLY hard and frequently. just thinking of my training schedule still scares me. not a single day would pass without my muscles aching. but, with the goal in mind, i continued to train hard, in hopes for success.
funny how something so tiring can appear so calm in a photograph.
just like how a rainbow is symbolic of a promise, my trainings indeed reaped its rewards. the first year alone, i managed to win several competitions, and get selected to join the national squad. i was the youngest there, and the slowest too. however, i really trained the hardest i knew how.
maybe a little too hard, as i incurred an injury to my lower back, which still hurts till this very day. that aside, i believe you can see how a weak girl who had no physical stature for such sports can actually acquire the strength to excel in it through training.
& the hardwork will be recognised forever, as it still hangs on the wall of temasek secondary school. all that said, when i look back, its not the recognition or medals that i remember. what i keep close to my heart is knowing for a fact that i am strong, and i will determine how strong i can be.
strength definitely can be acquired, and its inward built. so whatever situation you're going through, don't let it crush you. decide to take ownership of it, and be strong. train up your stamina and endurance, and rewards will be on the way.
this applies not just in the area of physical strength, but in emotional and mental strength as well. for those stories, if you're really interested, come ask me.
so let's BE STRONG!
bye!
1:24 AM;
christine was here
Monday, July 14, 2008
Emo-ness and Gossips.
okay, today hasn't been the greatest day, but i won't say it's the worst either. school was as usual, tiring and me being affected by monday blues decided to be all emo today. not just in looks, as i came dressed in black from head to toe, but in my mood as well. before i go on, to those who i affected due to my emo-ness, i truly apologise. i promise i'll be happier! haha. wow what a promise.
so anyway, moving on, i realise that being emo isn't exactly a bad thing. it's simply you expressing your emotions in a way that is noticed by others. after all, we all know that bottled up emotions lead to horrible things, which i shan't elaborate on. however, i'm not saying that being emo is a good thing either.
i suppose, it all depends. and i know for a fact, school is definitely not the right place to be emo. the tolerance of teenagers simply isnt there. they all will stereotype you and label you as being emo. and since everyone thinks its such a great trend to be emo, they'll further label you as a poser. wow. who knew, expressing your feelings would lead to such trauma. and they wonder why anger management classes have higher intakes.
so now, i shall stop ranting on about emo-ness cos i'm sure everyone has gone through some emo day, or stage, or event in their lives.
now, on to gossips.
i really think that even though gossips are fun, and juicy, they have to be within limits. i mean, going overboard with gossips is simply just asking for trouble. it's like staring trouble in the eye and daring it to come and attack and probably overpower you.
recently, or rather earlier on, i realised that no matter how innocent a person appears to be, they probably are talking behind your back. the worst part is actually when they believe their own gossips. it's simply so, well, immature if you ask me.
i admit, i do gossip as well, but i know they are what they are, gossips, which will never be proven unless they are backed up with cold hard evidence, or factual proof. otherwise, they remain a fragment of thoughts that are simply there for entertainment and conversational purposes.
it's not pleasant being on the other end.
that's all.
bye!
11:07 PM;
christine was here
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Queer Beginnings.
sometimes, beautiful friendships evolve from very queer beginnings. here's one.
one day, a tourist was walking around a park. being a tourist, she was obviously amused by everything she saw. equipped with a camera in hand, she decided to take a picture with a statue she saw on the pathway.
she was a little afraid that she would break the fragile statue, so she decided to only place one finger on the statue..
after taking the photo however, she accidentally banged the statue and realised that it did not fall. concluding that it was rather strong, she decided to lean against the statue and hopefully get a better picture to keep in her scrap book.
however, after the picture was taken, she realised a strange difference between the first and second pictures.. the statue moved!
being very freaked out, the tourist decided to head to the nearest toilet, to wash her face and convince herself that she was indeed, dreaming. however, when she opened the toilet door, what she saw led her to be even more terrified. she wished, she had never gone to the toilet.
however, she really needed to use the toilet as all the fear had caused her to come close to peeing in her pants. as she walked along the cubicles, the hooded figure moved towards her.. she tried to run and hide, but she couldnt..
with the hooded figure standing at an arms length away, the tourist realised, it had an uncanny resemblence to the statue. she decided to take a picture for photographic evidence.
after much analysis, she realised that it was the same person! & so, she plucked up courage and talked to this statue/hooded figure. only to find, it was a girl, who just couldn't dress properly, or stand properly.
she decided to be nice and teach basic skills to this, well, person. after much work, she finally reaped the rewards, when one day, this statue cum hooded figure turned up dressed well and standing properly.
she was so happy and overjoyed. both the tourist and the other person, decided to take a picture, as the laughed about the events leading up to their beautiful friendship.
and now after months, they remain the best of friends, and even colour code their outfits every now and then just for the thrill of it.
beautiful friendship, not so beautiful beginning.
bye!
12:44 AM;
christine was here
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
The Mind.
i realise, that many things actually are determined in the human mind. yes, the brain. as humans, i would say that we tend to over-analyse things. just like how so many people, including myself complain of stress. the word that pretty much sums up our school life. after much thought (yes you see, the mind in action again) i realise..
stress is self-inflicted. there's no such thing as, i've got many projects, therefore i'm stressed. rather, it should be.. i think that the projects are overwhelming me, therefore i'm stressed. it's simply how we perceive things, how we think. if you think you can handle it, you can. just like how the saying goes, half the battle is either won or lost in the mind. and the more famous one, if you think you can, you can.
it's just like how now, i'm facing a similar situation as before, when i was extremely stressed. yet, this time, i feel NO stress whatsoever. why? simple! it's because i believe that i can make it through, and i simply refuse to let it overpower me.
you see friends, the mind is a powerful tool. learn to control it, and you'll have a much easier life. but let it control you, and you'll have a tough stressful life.
it's time to take control!
& christine's taking control! (:
bye!
12:34 AM;
christine was here
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Simple Joys.
okay, i've discovered a simple yet effective way to relieve stress and also make me happy. not only that, it also creates strong friendship bonds, and not to mention, many laughs! (everybody knows that laughter IS the best medicine). hahahaha! so, curious to know the BIG SECRET?
it simply is, taking CRAZY multi-shots!
all it requires: friends, handphone, craziness!
benefits? joy, laughter, stress relieved! & closer friendships, many kodak moments, and FUN!!
introducing, the CREW..
Desiree, the owner of the phone & the one who initiated this trend! TRENDSETTER!! (:
Fathin, the tallest girl i know, and the one who can be really QUIET in class, but CRAZY in photos!
Christine, the most RETARDED looking one in most pictures, and YOURS TRULY!
.JPG)
this is what you do in the LIBRARY. (: kids, LEARN. most of the time, parents are lying to you. you DO NOT have to maintain peace and quiet. HAHAHAHA!
& when you're angry with someone, VIOLENCE is the answer! a simple punch wont hurt anyone! just look! she's enjoying it!!
.JPG)
& when you're done EATING, vent out your frustration by SCREAMING at the top of your lungs in the middle of the canteen. people secretly LOVE it.
.JPG)
always remember, ACT BLUR when a teacher walks by and asks why you were so noisy. YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING! (:
.JPG)
and of course, remember, YOU'RE INNOCENT, no matter what! and ACT THAT WAY! (:
yes, these are the days of my life in school. the valuable lessons learnt surpasses whatever is taught in LECTURES and TUTORIALS.
& do not hold me responsible if you get scolded while doing any of the above mentioned tasks.
I'M INNOCENT!
bye (:
11:47 PM;
christine was here
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
So Little Time.
okay, i know as the saying goes, time and tide waits for no man. how true that is, especially in these past two weeks. having only a few hours of free time in the entire week is not exactly something pleasant.
the clock is ticking. i feel bad for not being able to properly COMMIT to my various commitments, cos the other one clashes with it. just like how tmr i'll have to leave debate early and go for strikeforce late cos debate's from 6-9 and strikeforce is from 8-11. so obviously, a compromise has to be struck. my solution? leave at 8, hope to reach there at 8.30.
i guess i can't really say it's poor time management on my part. cos i have no time left to manage! hahaha.
thank You God, for giving me strength.
sometimes, 24 hours just seem so short, and flies past just like that. yet, there are moments when the time just seems to stop. ironic, but true.
i wish, i had more time, or rather, that i could be in 2 places at the same time.
but i know, only God is capable of that.
wish me luck!
bye (:
12:02 AM;
christine was here