Friday, October 31, 2008
My life!
it's my life and i want to live it by my rules. somehow, people just arent letting me. it's not the question of freedom cos quite frankly, i've got all the freedom i want. it's just, i'm being forced to do things i really don't want to do. is this because i'm mixing around with the wrong people?
okay, this is my blog so if you don't like what i write, too bad.
i really don't want to go for the halloween party thing tmr. i don't like halloween and i don't like partying. i also don't like dressing up and looking like a freak. i don't see any fun in that at all. please, enlighten me?
i'm still deciding if i should go just for the sake of it. just so others would be happy.
but...
i'll definitely not be happy. it's my life! i want to live it! and going to a halloween party is not the way i roll.
i'm making my own choices. i don't wanna live in regrets.
goodbye.
12:51 AM;
christine was here
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
school's started. i've got tonnes of things to do. but i procrastinate, as usual. i want an escape from this crazy life. everything's so..... routined and scheduled. i can't live with that.
halloween's coming up and i really don't wanna dress up.
i don't see why anyone would want to.
i've got my fun,
you've got yours.
looks like our common interests
have come and gone.
we walk such different paths that they'll never meet. we took different routes, our minds set so differently. conversations that used to go on forever, now seem forced and rehearsed. i know we've changed and moved on. i thought we were friends for a lifetime, but it appears to be we were friends only for a season. secrets we used to share, now we both just don't seem to care. i've got my secrets, you've got yours. i'm glad the season's over. memories are great, my future greater. us doesnt exist anymore. it's just... past tense.
goodbye.
2:28 AM;
christine was here
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Reality Check.
alright. i guess it's time for a what have i been up to kinda post. so far, well school's started and so that sucks out alot of my time. the teachers go so slow as if we're in kindergarten or something. that really annoys me. i just can't stand slow paced lessons.
besides the boring school which really has nothing much going on for itself, i've been really doing nothing. and that bothers me ALOT. i'm the type of person who can't stand watching my life go by without living it to the fullest. sometimes, i just really want to ask WHY. why is it that i seem so bored and so free and just have nothing to do when others are out there trying to find time in their packed schedule?
i don't see what i'm doing wrong. i guess in the world today, everything's become a popularity contest. your schedule gets packed when you're given more tasks. and that only comes when your boss or leader thinks you're capable of doing it. many times, though your capabilities may exceed some of your peers, they get picked simply because they're more popular. that really sucks. and that is one of the major reasons why i just want to migrate.
i don't think anyone sees anything in me here. so why should i still stay? i mean in everything that i do, i give it my 110% effort. but somehow, things just don't seem to work out. i really don't know why... i feel so helpless and irritated at my inability to lead life.
i hate the fact that sometimes, we have to be dependent on others. i'm highly independent and i feel weird even having to rely on anyone for help. it's just so..... not me.
enough said..
goodbye.
8:47 PM;
christine was here
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
What If.
everybody hates living their lives thinking "what if". however, sometimes it's just so inevitable. right now, i'm living with a HUGE what if at the back of my head...
WHAT IF I'D MIGRATED TO THE STATES LAST YEAR?
as much as i'd like to know the answer, i guess i never will. and this question really bothers me quite a bit. i mean, is singapore really the right place for me? i've been living here all my life and things seem to be ok, mediocore. but i don't want a life of mediocrity.
i keep wondering, will my life be better there? will i have more things to do? better friends? go to a better school?
questions fill my mind,
answers i can't find.
sometimes i wish i could live more lives, be in 2 places at once. i miss everything, yet i don't dare long for anything. i know, no one can truly understand this feeling.
can't wait to go to america again. i wish, i could just get on a plane now and be on my way. 20 hours later, i'd be greeted by my mum's embrace. i miss her.
goodbye.
1:12 AM;
christine was here
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Public Transport.
even though people do say singapore's public transport system is so convienient. it takes you everywhere at affordable rates. yes. BUT. it's torture. now let me elaborate WHY. yes, the buses are air conditioned, protecting us from the sweltering heat. but. the problem comes in when SMELLY people board the bus. and we all know what happens next. we all suffer and die and can't breathe.
so what i propose is.. we should pass a law saying that no smelly people are allowed to take public transport. they should have a detector. at the entrance of any transport. and detect if the person is smelly or not. if he/she is, they should not be allowed to enter the public transport.
yes, it may seem a little extreme but this is AIR POLLUTION. people actually SUFFER. it's like locking people in a cell with people who don't use deodorant. that's DISGUSTING. like totally. and due to the choking STENCH, people will develop BREATHING DIFFICULTIES. this in turn will result to more hospital trips needed and more government subsidies required to pay all this. and it can all be solved if these smelly people are just not allowed on public transport. isn't that a simple solution? if you stink, use deodorant it's not that expensive.. come on it's like what 5 bucks only. or else, WALK home or stink up your own car.
don't damage innocent lives.
goodbye.
1:42 AM;
christine was here
Thursday, October 16, 2008
School.
okay, so school is starting on monday. after such a long holiday of almost 2 months, i'm really used to having just a laid back lifestyle and doing whatever, whenever. now that school's starting, i have to model my life around a fixed schedule, and that in itself sucks.
of course not to mention the depletion of my already pathetic social life, and of course the piling up of assignments and projects. yeah, i do wanna know more things and stuff but is school really necessary? i'm pretty sure that if you give me just a book, and ask me to teach myself, i would have no problems whatsoever. and if i did, there's the wonderful internet that gives you access to practically everything.
so why school? so teachers have jobs? so kids have to be subjected to a horrible table and chair and pay money to learn things they could have just read from a book? isn't school in that sense promoting laziness? the laziness to take the initiative to open up a book when you wanna know something new. the laziness to search the encyclopedia for answers. now, everyone just goes by saying, oh if i dunno, i'll just ask my teacher. hmmm...... that seems to be wrong right? instead of active learning, society has now sinked into passive learning. where everything you know is being told to you. it's not something you learn on your own accord.
the question is, is this good?
well, the system seems to think so. and so we all have to conform. just like robots walking down a lane, students walk down classroom aisles.
goodbye.
10:30 PM;
christine was here
Interests.
when personal interests collide with other commitments, do you follow your heart, or your schedule? given only one life to live, i follow my heart. maybe this causes conflict among others, maybe other people will not be happy. maybe it's not the right thing to do. but being happy is something that money cant buy. certain experiences are once in a lifetime.
to live my life to the fullest, i follow my heart.
3:39 PM;
christine was here
Monday, October 13, 2008
Comforting.
sometimes, life throws us difficulties and problems. some manageable, some which seem impossible to handle. through all this, i find it really comforting to know that my God is greater than all this.
all this time, i've been overlooking that. we sang a song this week at church. this was the part that really gave me comfort.
in all my life
in every situation i know
my God is GREATER
my God is OVER ALL.
doesn't it feel so comforting to just know that your God is SO GREAT that He has everything in control, and will never test you beyond what you're capable of?
i love my God. (:
12:20 AM;
christine was here
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Random Thoughts.
- does anyone still read this blog?
- why am i annoying myself?
- should i colour my hair?
- i want a job!
- coffee.
- i need to stop eating chocolates!
- i think i got fatter.
- where are my friends?
- i want to go to USA. now.
- i miss my mummy!
- hamsters are cute.
- i want an exciting life.
- canoeing.
- cousin outing please!
- overseas!
- sleepover.
- subway....
- i'm going to sleep now.
- yes, i amuse myself!
- told u i'm random.
bye!
2:10 AM;
christine was here
Thursday, October 2, 2008
The Adventures of Taukuas.
once upon a time, there lived 2 happy taukuas. AWWWW. yes, they were the cutest lil things, and they still are! seeing that they are TAUKUAs, it was difficult to find partners. you see, this planet is kind of dominated by human beings.
being the special species they are, they decided to get married! ain't their wedding picture just oh-so-sweet?! yes, we know you LOVE THEM.
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they wanted a PERFECT wedding reception, and so they spent TONNES of money on their wedding FEAST. just look at the huge amount of food!
after spending so much however, they realised... they were in urgent need of money! so they decided to think of ways to earn QUICK money! lets take a look inside their brains...
hmmm, seems to be working really hard!! GO TAUKUA!
some meditation on the idea is required as well.....
and they came up with a BRILLIANT plan! they decided to CLONE THEMSELVES! you see, just a day ago, they read about a competition offering 1 million dollars to anyone who could clone themselves. being the positive taukuas they are, they took on the challenge
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the cloning manual was obviously hidden.... one of the taukuas is yanking it out from its secret hiding place! *try not to look suspicious!*
so the manual instructed the taukuas to purchase some chemicals for the cloning process, as shown above.
the instructions stated, insert chemical into taukua. they decided to try the most traditional method first, through the mouth..
open big taukua, we know the chemical doesnt taste that nice but..... you gotta do what you gotta do!
after much trying, it didn't seem to work.... they decided to try... through the nose. now that has got to hurt!
hmmm seems easy for this taukua.... wonder why... LOL.
that didn't really seem to work... being the tenacious lil taukua, she tried to insert the chemical through her ear... yikes!
satisfied that all the chemicals were used up, they decided to check the result in the mirror... did the cloning process work???
to their dismay, the process didn't seem to work... in desperation for money, they decided to try to be rockstars.. they heard that the whole emo look was the new in thing. going with the flow, they tried headbanging... hmmmmm.
they even tried to pass of as attractions from the zoo.... maybe they scared the kids instead!
hmmmm when all else failed, they thought maybe it'll be better if they killed themselves...
even that didn't work. guess the gun used was not up to date and couldnt cut through the really hard surface of a taukua... they decided to TRY to cheer themselves up...
while walking pass something, they realised..... there were 2 sets of taukuas! amazed, they took a picture... they thought their eyes were playing tricks on them...
suddenly, they felt weird when they moved... like a part of them stayed while the rest moved... what was happening?
it's then that it dawned upon them.. the cloning process was SUCCESSFUL! they were cloned!
however, they soon realised, the competition rewarding the money was only open to humans..... how unfair!
they decided to stay positive. the experience brought them closer to each other. they love each other more and more. we know, you love them too. cheers to the happily married taukua couple!
btw, they do welcome your donations to the taukua fund. you can start by sponsoring their shopping trips. they REALLY don't mind and they're GREAT company. not to mention, they're FUN!
bye!
10:42 PM;
christine was here
Outings!
okay, my social life isnt looking THAT bad... been on various outings, starting with the beloved TAUKUA!!
see.. we miss each other so much that we're SO HAPPY to see each other again. YES, taukuas have feelings too. AWWWW aint that sweet... i know u love me taukua!
and yes, taukuas have to eat. being the kiasu singaporeans we are, we settled for mac cos of the value lunch thingy. yes, mcwings cost like $4.50 only!! and yes, we had an AWESOME day, as always.
i'd love to blog all the many pics we took, but they're all in taukua's phone... and i still dun have them.. TAUKUA!! i want the pics! anyway, you can see SOME of them on her blog.. go to the links, click on the one which says sylvia. yes, that is her real name! hahahaha.
anyway, to cut the whole story short, we walked the WHOLE of town. YAY US. and we bought some pretty clothes from far east. AWESOME day. we ate chicken, got mobbed by weirdos, and had tonnes of fans asking for our autographs. WE ROCK. LOVE YOU TAUKUA GO OUT SOON!
next outing: SHAUN KOR!
okay, this army guy ar... i've known him for like FOREVER. okay, since i was sec 1. that's like... WOW. 5 years!! oh man i feel old. hahahaha. i remember ALL the great times we shared. i shan't bore you. but i finally got to meet him after 5 months! so long right?! thus the awesome smiles!! (: don't worry kor i still love you even without your hair! LOL.
and another pic... hmmm seems like he's getting tired... LOL! meet up again soon k!! and thank you so much for the starbucks treat!! u know.. the 1st time i drink coffee n tea is with him! AWESOME right?! (:
next outing: COUSINS!!! melissa and colin!!
this is MELISSA PRISCILLA ESS. the BIRTHDAY GIRL. happy birthday you little bundle of trouble! 15 years.. i wonder how i could tolerate all the nonsense. k la joking. i love this girl to bits! (:
and of course, COLIN MARCUS CHOO. they're AMAZING i tell u. MEL's born on 1 OCT, and COL's born on 2 OCT. so, another birthday boy! happy birthday! i tell you i love him to bits too. he's simply AWESOME. and great company. great fun to lepak with! hahahaha! and he laughs really funnily and yes, he's in the girl's toilet. LOL! (:
yay, cousins SMILE! and yes, we just can't seem to get a really good picture... i wonder why...... hahahaha! MEL what's up with that face?! hahahaha! told you they're weird. hahahaha!
yay! finally a NICE SHOT! i love my cousins to bits! like FOREVER. blood is thicker than water!! i can't believe i'm the oldest one there!!! LOL!
don't we look like siblings? hahahaha. it's all in the blood baby!
so we decided to head over to astons for dinner... those 2 just can't seem to behave themselves! hahahaha! but, you can just imagine the amount of laughter going on.... haha!
finally, we've had our meal. and we're happy cousins. MELISSA and COLIN. love u guys FOREVER. and i'm honoured to have u 2 as my cousins! it doesn't get any better than this! go out SOON. after your exams k?!! LOVE LOTS!!
that ends my outings.
i love my friends and cousins.
bye!
12:35 AM;
christine was here
