Thursday, October 23, 2008
Reality Check.
alright. i guess it's time for a what have i been up to kinda post. so far, well school's started and so that sucks out alot of my time. the teachers go so slow as if we're in kindergarten or something. that really annoys me. i just can't stand slow paced lessons.
besides the boring school which really has nothing much going on for itself, i've been really doing nothing. and that bothers me ALOT. i'm the type of person who can't stand watching my life go by without living it to the fullest. sometimes, i just really want to ask WHY. why is it that i seem so bored and so free and just have nothing to do when others are out there trying to find time in their packed schedule?
i don't see what i'm doing wrong. i guess in the world today, everything's become a popularity contest. your schedule gets packed when you're given more tasks. and that only comes when your boss or leader thinks you're capable of doing it. many times, though your capabilities may exceed some of your peers, they get picked simply because they're more popular. that really sucks. and that is one of the major reasons why i just want to migrate.
i don't think anyone sees anything in me here. so why should i still stay? i mean in everything that i do, i give it my 110% effort. but somehow, things just don't seem to work out. i really don't know why... i feel so helpless and irritated at my inability to lead life.
i hate the fact that sometimes, we have to be dependent on others. i'm highly independent and i feel weird even having to rely on anyone for help. it's just so..... not me.
enough said..
goodbye.
8:47 PM;
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