Wednesday, October 22, 2008
What If.
everybody hates living their lives thinking "what if". however, sometimes it's just so inevitable. right now, i'm living with a HUGE what if at the back of my head...
WHAT IF I'D MIGRATED TO THE STATES LAST YEAR?
as much as i'd like to know the answer, i guess i never will. and this question really bothers me quite a bit. i mean, is singapore really the right place for me? i've been living here all my life and things seem to be ok, mediocore. but i don't want a life of mediocrity.
i keep wondering, will my life be better there? will i have more things to do? better friends? go to a better school?
questions fill my mind,
answers i can't find.
sometimes i wish i could live more lives, be in 2 places at once. i miss everything, yet i don't dare long for anything. i know, no one can truly understand this feeling.
can't wait to go to america again. i wish, i could just get on a plane now and be on my way. 20 hours later, i'd be greeted by my mum's embrace. i miss her.
goodbye.
1:12 AM;
christine was here