Monday, November 3, 2008
Sitophobia.
sitophobia. the fear of eating.
i'm scared to eat. almost all the time. simply because everytime i eat, i get sick. extreme discomfort.. though i've learnt to live with it and pretend everything is fine and dandy, it's not. my stomach protests everytime i eat. and i don't even know why..
i don't like this feeling so much that i'd rather not eat at all. or i'll eat very little so i won't get sick. so far, medicines don't help. water doesn't either. it literally feels like the food gets stuck in my gullet or something. swallowing becomes difficult, even water.
and i don't eat alot of different foods because they make me very uncomfortable. an example is rice. everytime i eat rice, i get sick. even to the extent of turning pale. i don't get it.. i had an injection for this discomfort before, but not only did it not help, i ended up fainting. so i guess i shouldn't get that injection anymore.
so the next time i don't eat, or eat very little, please. don't force me to eat more. i'm not trying to lose weight, i'm just trying to make sure i don't feel uncomfortable, like i do now.
goodbye.
11:59 PM;
christine was here