Friday, May 22, 2009
Words.
sometimes words cannot comprehend feelings, the way poems do. sometimes, things are better left unsaid. sometimes, gestures are enough to express thoughts, and sometimes, we all need to just be quiet and observe.
i recently took the DISC test thing online, not sure if it's accurate, but it shows that i'm a really high S. The description of S people in wikipedia.
Steadiness:(Submission in Marston's time): People with High "S" styles scores want a steady pace, security, and do not like sudden change. High "S" persons are calm, relaxed, patient, possessive, predictable, deliberate, stable, consistent, and tend to be unemotional and poker faced. Low "S" intensity scores are those who like change and variety. People with Low "S" scores are described as restless, demonstrative, impatient, eager, or even impulsive.
hmmm, somehow i don't think it's an accurate description of me. it just goes to show that not all psychology tests will fit everyone. cos personally i think none of our characteristics should be determined by a questionaire.
oh well! hahahaha (:
like i said, i prefer poems.
http://remaerd-me.livejournal.com
bye!
1:01 AM;
christine was here
Friday, May 15, 2009
Annoyance.
i'm annoyed now because i really want to sleep. but, the maid's at the house. and dad's asleep so she hasn't cleaned it yet. and if i sleep she can't start. SO ANNOYING. i know i get easily annoyed but i really really want to sleep! i'm tired!
okay. i'm gonna ask her to clean my room first and i'll be off to sleep! (:
goodnight!
2:34 PM;
christine was here
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Independence.
Definition according to Webster's Revised Unabriged Dictionary.
In`de*pend"ence\, n. [Cf. F. ind['e]pendance.]
1. The state or quality of being independent; freedom from dependence; exemption from reliance on, or control by, others; self-subsistence or maintenance; direction of one's own affairs without interference.
2. Sufficient means for a comfortable livelihood.
I've always thought that I was an independent person. That independence would be the word to descirbe my life. Recently, I've had a major wake up call from my dad. He told me I should be more independent. Why? Because I'm not.
Independence = free from dependence. I'm not free from dependence, becuase I still get allowance from my dad. I still live in a house that's under his name. I still need him to pay my bills. I still need so many things from so many people. The truth is i'm not independent, and as my dad puts it, I'm not a survivor.
A survivor is someone who can survive by themselves. Someone independent, someone self-sufficient. My dad always tells me that I need to be a survivor. I mean, I can't keep relying on other people. I am 18 years old. That's old enough to be able to stand on my own two feet. I don't want to burden anyone with the responsibility of taking care of me.
I need to be independent. I need to be self-sufficient. I need to be financially capable of taking care of my own well-being. I need to grow up! My dad says that even though I'm 18, I don't behave that way. I think he's right. I need to live like I'm 18 and be independent.
I always thought I was independent, until I saw a different perspective of things. I seriously need to grow up.
11:37 PM;
christine was here
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Mother's Day.
we all know that mother's day is just around the corner.. i wish i could spend mine with my mum. but, i will definitely make it up to her when i go to USA.
this was my arrival at MSP airport.. in dec 07. that's the last time i saw my mum! a really long time ago.. she's such an inspiration to me. she's more than just my mum, she's my friend.. and i really miss her!
haha we have fun together (: we put up our hoods just for fun and we were laughing at each other in the process! hahaha! (: even though i was complaining about the cold, looking back at pictures only bring back good memories.. memories of the times we've shared together..
we used to share food all the time! (from mc donald's happy meals when i was younger to our traditional banana splits). each time i look at a meal i can't finish, or a nice meal, i think of how much nicer it would be if i could share it with my mum..
and the scenery.. i was never quite the nature lover. it was mostly inspired by my mum. she would be the one to point out the nice sky.. show me many pictures, and tell me how beautiful the sky looked...
i now realise how beautiful it is, and i wish, she was here so i could share this with her. i wish i could stand with her and just gaze at the beauty of the sky, just like how she taught me to. now i know, i've got to slow down, appreciate the things i so often take for granted. now i know, that no matter what, the world is a beautiful place, if only i can see. sometimes it's not the image but the perception.
i've become a strong mature and independent woman. i've learned to appreciate nature, put my trust in God no matter what, and dream big dreams. i've seen them happen for my mum, and i know they can happen for me to.
to a woman full of strength, character and love,
to a woman sent to me from above,
to a woman who showed me life,
to a woman who shared her life,
to a woman as beautiful as the stars,
to a woman i dearly love,
mum,
i love you!
thank you for everything.
happy mother's day! (:
1:33 AM;
christine was here
Friday, May 1, 2009
Coming Home Early.
okay, most of the time, parents would be happy if their kids just came home right after school and stayed home to study or something. so me, being a kid, i'll try to come home early sometimes. and yes, i've been coming home straight from school!
so i try to be a good daughter and make my dad happy. now here's where things become funny. when i come back early, an empty house greets me cos my dad's out with his friends. he'll just sms "have dinner before coming back." haha! so that makes me feel like i wasted an opportunity to go out! hahahaha!
i know some people would die to have the freedom i do. i guess that once you've got it, you realise... it's not such a big deal after all. and more than that, you think like a responsible adult. haha.
so which is better, curfews or freedom?
bye!
12:06 AM;
christine was here